Where Words Fail, Music Speaks

As I go through my old journals, I notice that I put a heck of a lot of songs lyrics in them. At first I was frustrated because I was like, "dude, why can't I come up with anything myself. Why do I need someone else's song to describe how I'm feeling." But then I thought about it and yeah, maybe I do not have the skill of writing my own songs. I am musical and maybe if I really took the time and effort I could come up with something but there is nothing I love more than when I hear a song on the radio and the words feel like they are talking right to me. I am an artist. I am not so good with words, grammar, spelling, or even thinking. But I do know that I am very good at expressing how I feel in my art, in my decoration, in my organization, in my clothes, and in my way of living. Nothing in the world is original. We take what we learn and come up with ways to express ourselves from things around us. I like to take songs I hear and put them in my journal because that is the only way I can communicate how I feel about anything. I am not much of a feelings person, but I am a musical person. As wonderful Mr. Mac had posted in his choir room, "Where Words Fail, Music Speaks." And I have lived by that since I heard it. Here's a music video that is equally visually and musically artistic and beautiful. Love Regina. She's the best.

FRESH START FIRDAY IS HERE!

Well, Fresh Start Friday didn't start the way I wanted it to, only because I woke up to the worst cramps ever instead of an alarm clock.. thank you womanhood. jerk. But then I went to class, took good notes, finished my Physical Science homework in the Lab and turned it in while also studying for my test Monday. Then I walked home in the freezing cold, made hot chocolate when I got home and now I'm getting ready for work. But what has really made this day amazing was this article I stumbled upon on my favorite website currently (hellogiggles) Anyways. It's called "12 Things That Make you Happy, You Shouldn't Apologize for, Ever." Just a list of the simple joys in life that can be appreciated on bad days like Mondays and little things in life that get you down. So great. Here's the list, I'm probably breaking some copywrit rules so heres the link just in case I get in trouble: http://hellogiggles.com/12-things-that-make-you-so-happy-you-shouldnt-apologize-ever

1.  Eating all the chips and salsa and then asking for more.

It’s perfectly okay to devour all the warm, salty tortilla chips they have perfected at your favorite Mexican restaurant. Even though you ordered a giant plate of awesome, it’s alright to say “yes” when your server asks if you would like more chips. You can’t get these anywhere else (at least not like this) and the crunch is just too satisfying. Order the chips.

2.  Sinking your face into a pile of warm, freshly washed clothes.

Nothing smells and feels as good as a bundle of warm, clean clothes after the weekly hassle of hunting down two empty washers and dryers, climbing up and down stairs with a basket full of clothing, and separating darks and whites is over. Go ahead and nestle up. Breathe in that soothing laundry detergent smell and be thankful you don’t have to do this again for another week.

3.  Buying a new notebook even though you haven’t used up your old one (or two, or ten)

I have at least twenty notebooks that are half-filled with notes, stories, essays, diary entries, or drawings, but it doesn’t feel quite right starting the semester off with a used notebook, or beginning a new year with a diary from last year’s thoughts. Getting a new notebook and writing on the first pristinely white and baby-blue lined page is just so good. This ties with finding the perfect pen that inspires you to write neatly because of its magical pen qualities (ballpoint, grip, quality ink).

4. Harry Potter marathons.

The ABC Family Harry Potter marathons are the best. Staying home in pajamas and not leaving the couch because you want to re-live the moment Harry saves Ginny from the Chamber of Secrets or all the times Hermione is extremely sassy and smarter than everyone is definitely one the best things you can do for yourself and your childhood memories. Long live Harry Potter!

5. Skyping with someone you haven’t seen in forever.

And accepting its initial awkwardness but then getting back into the groove of knowing this person and why you love them. Making sure you don’t have a double chin while you rant and rave about your crazy neighbor or listen to them tell you there are way too many trees where they live now. Not realizing it’s been over two hours since you dialed them up.

6. Buying shampoo solely based on its scent

Parabens? Non-organic? Sulfates? Who cares. If your shampoo smells like apples or vanilla-lavender, it’s totally worth it.

7. Finding a crazy recipe on Pinterest and managing to pull it off.

Like those soups that people make in vegetables, or brownies that taste like the ones from the box but are actually made with kale and avocados. Most of the time, I end up with brown pools of inedible garbage in my cake tins, but sometimes you just NAIL it and create something genius and delicious.

8. Managing to find a pair of jeans that fit in one shopping trip.

Alas, this feat is close to impossible. While you’re a 2 in one store, you might be an 8 in another. Boot-cut is weird, and why does everyone have those pre-ripped pants? Stop it already. But there’s this one day you’ll have, maybe once every other year, where you walk into a single store and you find jeans that hug you in all the right ways, the wash is a perfect blue, and they actually FIT your thighs, ass, and calves. HALLELUJAH, I say.

9. Deleting an ex from Facebook.

It’s just the internet, but clicking the “un-friend” button when you know you’ve been holding on for no reason whatsoever is so, so satisfying. They’ll never see pictures of you having the time of your life without them because they don’t deserve to.

10.  Showering when you haven’t in awhile

Days go by until you realize your hair desperately needs to be shampooed. And lathered. And rinsed. And your armpit hair is outrageous and you kind of smell like deodorant and old sheets. Um, I know I’ve been there. Try grading 75 essays in a single weekend and you will forget the word “shower”. Stepping inside the steaming hot tub and letting the water pour down your body is insanely amazing. The feeling of squeaky-clean in a pair of unworn PJs is just awesome.

11. Someone complimenting your outfit.

I’m not vain or anything, but if someone stops what they’re doing and informs me that my dress or hair or shoes are nice, I feel a billion times more confident about myself and sense of style. And no, you don’t need the affirmation to feel good about yourself. But it’s a pretty nice gesture, right?

12. That feeling you get when you know everything is going to be okay.

After a gruesome week at work, or crappy day at school, all the negativity clouds your vision and senses like bad perfume. You would be fine if you never had to leave your apartment again and you consider moving to a country that is thousands of miles away from everything that’s getting you down. But after awhile, you fall asleep. And you wake up. And you make a pot of coffee. And you step outside and the air is perfectly crisp. It is then that you understand that everything is going to be okay. It will always be okay.

So far I have actually done most of these in the past two weeks. Pretty impressive. And YES I did the jeans one. Went to Trendy Exchange for cheap joy shopping and tried on a pair of blue skinny jeans. First one I saw, tried it on, they fit, and only $10. I thought I had just broke a shopping record. Its those kinds of things that make me feel good. Not winning a football game, not even acing a test, but trying on a pair of perfect jeans, going to a farmers market with friends and sampling some of the best food I've ever tasted, clean laundry, fuzzy socks, full tank of gas, and melted cheese.

Fresh Start Fridays

So as apart of my goals of a new semester I feel like I am struggling. Only because I have like a bagillion goals I want to accomplish before the end of the year. So as I am trying to come up with a better way to stay on task I decided that I HATE MONDAYS... I hate mondays so much that I sometimes stop trying all day because I hate them so much. I always feel more tired because I tried to take a nap Sunday but ended up over sleeping causing me to go to bed way to late and then wake up for a 9 am class on Monday and have 4 more classes after that.. no thank you. And everything always goes wrong on Monday. I think every Monday this semester something has gone terribly wrong. First Monday, I tripped up the stairs on the way to school and made my first little crack in my phone. Second Monday I got locked out, I couldn't find anything to wear, and I don't remember now what else happened but I distantly remember that day was awful. Anyways, long story short, every Monday after that I have just given up. Sooo normally on sunday I would say all the things I wanted to do for that week and starting monday I would start to do them.. heck no. After giving up on the day itself there's no way I am going to have the desire to do anything on that list now. Fridays are now Fresh Start Fridays for me. I'm preparing for my first one by doing a little bit of grocery shopping at the farmers market, cleaning my room so that I can truly start over on friday. Then maybe Mondays won't be so bad after all. Just kidding, Mondays are awful, that will never happen. I have a new diet, all my winter stuff hung up, (because its starting to get freezing already...what the heck Provo), going to do laundry tomorrow, going to catch up on homework, going to re learn how to make hot chocolate at work tomorrow, and going to have a wonderful Fresh Start Friday. Then I will be prepared enough to relax on Saturday and Sunday and not have to stress about the week. Because Fridays will be MY day :D

And here is a wonderful quote from New Girl that expresses usually how my Mondays go.